What is C-PTSD? How Can We Recover from Complex Trauma?
Updated: Jun 8
Definition of Complex Trauma leading to C-PTSD
“Complex Trauma or C-PTSD is defined as the exposure to multiple, often interrelated forms of traumatic experiences AND the difficulties that arise as a result of adapting to or surviving these experiences. These adverse experiences typically begin in early childhood, are longstanding or recurrent and are inflicted by others”
Complex trauma is a form of PTSD known as C-PTSD. It is normally diagnosed when a sequence of traumatic events happen over a period of time, especially when the perpetrator was someone close to us, such as a parent or caregiver. C-PTSD can be caused by abuse or neglect or both.
When Home Isn’t Safe
Children need to feel safe to thrive. The home environment needs to be stable so they can grow and develop. A previous blog talks about what is an adverse childhood experience or ACEs, and how these experiences can change the way we relate to the world.
The trouble is that when we grow up in a dysfunctional or abusive environment, we don’t know it’s abuse at the time. It’s our normal. I remember telling a friend, who happened to be a social worker, about some things that happened in our house as I was growing up. She said “you know that’s abuse, right?” I nearly fell over! I had no idea that the stuff that had happened was abuse, it was just my crazy family. Everyone’s family has crazy, doesn’t it? Apparently not.
C-PTSD tends to show up as we get older. Many people ask, why now, why not back then when it was all so hard? When dysfunction is the norm, we adapt. We learn survival techniques that literally keep us alive. We might stay quiet, keep the peace, get really good at people pleasing.
Those techniques helped us then but may not serve us well now. It is not a sudden appearance of C-PTSD it is just that our survival techniques are no longer needed and have become uncomfortable.
Symptoms of C-PTSD
There are many lists of symptoms for C-PTSD and they all vary a bit, they can include the following:
Losing memories of trauma or reliving them
Vicious inner critic
Feelings of loneliness and abandonment
Fragile self esteem
Difficulty regulating emotions that often manifest as rage
Suicidal thoughts or actions
Sudden mood swings
Feeling detached from oneself
Feeling different from others
Difficulty maintaining relationships
Difficulty trusting others
Seeking out or becoming a rescuer
Feeling afraid for no apparent reason
Having a feeling of always being on the alert
Becoming obsessed with revenge on the perpetrator
Feeling a loss of spiritual attachment and either ignoring or depending upon religion for self-worth
Emotional Flashbacks in C-PTSD
Emotional flashbacks are feeling flashbacks rather than the visual flashbacks we might associate with PTSD. These feelings can be overwhelming and last as little as a few moments or may last weeks. We are once again feeling like that abused or abandoned child. Pete Walker talks about them really well in his book Complex PTSD From Surviving to Thriving. You can learn more about his work on C-PTSD on his website.
If you hear something often enough, you start to believe. If our parents constantly tell us we are ugly, stupid, clumsy or flawed we start to believe it. As children we internalise what the grown ups say as complete truth. Toxic shame can also be created by parental neglect or rejection.
It is a real case of “well if my parents don’t love me, I must be awful” These internalised beliefs follow us into adulthood. We might know logically that we are not stupid or ugly but still that core belief remains.
Vicious Inner Critic
Most of us have an inner critic. That little voice that says you can’t do this or that, you are rubbish at sport so don’t try and so on. In survivors of C-PTSD the inner critic is a viscous nasty thing. It doesn’t just tell us that we are bad at doing things, it tells us that we ARE bad. That we are fundamentally flawed and unlovable. We are loveless not because of our mistakes, but because of who we are. I was told, and truly believed that if you knew what I was really like then you wouldn’t like me.
Passive suicidality is very common with C-PTSD. It differs from actively feeling suicidal. It can range from wishing you were dead to fantasising about ways to end your life. You may think or fantasise about stepping in front of a car or throwing yourself off a building. It normally ends without any attempt to actively commit suicide.
Some experts contend that this is a flashback to early childhood when the feelings were so overwhelming that it was natural for us to wish something would just put an end to it all.
Personally, I think that suicide fantasies are like the ultimate get out of jail card. They can be the only way to regain a feeling of control after a lifetime of having none.
Please bear in mind this is about passive suicidality. Actual suicide thoughts and plans should be taken very seriously.
Ways to recover from C-PTSD
· Get some therapy! – counselling with an experienced therapist is incredibly helpful. Talk to someone who understands trauma and the need for safety. You can’t start to heal until you feel safe.
Learn sef-regulation – survivors often experience roller-coaster emotions. This can include rage, guilt, sadness and a whole host of others. Learn ways to calm yourself.
Reclaim Control – recognise that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you! There is nothing to feel shameful about. This might take time, and you might need some help with it.
Become aware of your triggers – work out what triggers you. Not so you can avoid them but so that you can pull them into awareness and not get hijacked by them.
Don’t isolate – shame and fear likes to keep us isolated. Talk to friends, confide in someone you trust.
Some benefits of working with a Trauma Focused Therapist
Working with a trauma focused therapist can be extremely helpful if you believe your are suffering from C-PTSD. Some of the benefits include:
A sense of clarity about what happened
Turning the volume down on the inner critic
Establishing healthy boundaries
Increased sense of well-being.
If you recognise yourself in this blog and you would like to address any issues it may have brought up for you please contact me via the contact page, here.